This week with the entire team of my company we enjoyed a very intensive training in Portugal. We participated in a training course on Systems Convening by Bev and Etienne Wenger-Trayner. This took place in their home in Sesimbra, Portugal. In the fall of 2023 we did the same training, more focused on us individually. This time it was centered on our expertise teams, which allowed us to dive deeper for those who attended last time, and made it possible to bring our 4 new colleagues up to speed quickly too.
I traveled to Portugal on Monday, and returned Saturday at the end of the day. It was very good to spend lots of time with all our colleagues, and to do so in pleasant surroundings with good food and dolphin spotting at sea. At the same time I returned home feeling mentally worse. I think I spotted some patterns that mean that what my company needs from me is not good for my struggle with burnout and what I need to address my burnout is not good for my company. There’s already enough turbulence on both sides of this equation, and this makes mefeel in a worse place mentally. Will need to chew on this, and talk it over with colleagues and at home.